Verse 13 - Forgive me

HOT day today =.=, work ain't that stressing anymore, finally got everything organized.

Today's topic "forgive me"

I never fail to think about her everyday when we're together or when we're apart. Seriusly, when i was neglecting her, i was also thinking of her tho not as much. Today i thought about how i always let other ppl pick her up and bring her everywhere. When i'm in the office working. Even tho i know that i can finished my work on time, even tho i knew that i should've spent at least a little time with her, it'll make her happy, i didn't... Really, i should've done better than that *sigh*

I was told by her today that i am a boring friend. Gotta admit that. I've been asking questions which i already knew the answer to. Tho the beginning was a nice chat. She was angry becos my sister said something again this time. Oh well, what happened, happened u know, nothing much i can do about it cept to make it better in the future.

Anyways, back to where she said i'm a boring friend. I dunno how to treat her as just a friend after 3 years plus of being together and everything. She should have known. All i know is how to treat her as someone i love alot. How to treat her good and how i can take care of her and stuff.. oh well.

Today i've stopped calling her "baby" when we're chatting. I heard that she doesn't like it when i call her that, since we're not together and all. I guess i should respect that. I hope its alrite to call her baby here tho, since she wont know, i guess it wouldn't hurt. Its hard really, there are times when i wanna call out "baby" but i had to pull back my hands and stuff just so i can think before i type anything =.=|||

Anyway, the topic today is just as it says:

Baby, forgive me for the times i've hurt you.
Forgive me for the times i left u alone.
Forgive me for the times i wasn't there when u needed me.
Forgive me for being a jerk sometimes.
Forgive me for always wanting to win in a quarrel with you.
Forgive me for not being considerate.
Forgive me for not being understanding.
Forgive me for my lack of care for you.
Forgive me for making you doubt me.
Forgive me for not taking what u said seriusly sometimes.
and most of all,
Forgive me baby, for always realizing only when its too late.

I love you...

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