Verse 2 - Attempts 01

Went to a shopping complex yesterday with a fren of mine. Was in a very depressed mood that day, no idea what happen. I thought about baby alot, but she seems to be enjoying herself, so i was kinda happy, but also not happy. She's been mixing around with some guy frens of hers. You know the feeling when u saw someone u love being so close to another guy? well i kinda had that feeling. I don't mind actually if we're still together and all, but this feeling just came automatically specially when knowing she's not mine anymore =.=||| in my mind i was thinking, why do i have to go through all this? did i make her go through all these? =.= life is unfair, gotta deal with it i guess.

Was walking around when i saw this heart shaped box and, what a coincidence, they're selling cookies =.=, great, it made me think of her directly since she's been craving for cookies at a certain time. So, i bought the heart shaped box and a pack of cookies. Now all that's left is how to hand it to her =.= her mom is back so i dunno, maybe its not that appropriate to go her house and stuff, did that before and i kinda regreted it in a sense. I was thinking while walking along with my fren asking him for some advice. He never had any good advices =.=. That was when we passed by a shop selling cloths. Me and her know the boss there so i kinda talked with the boss for awhile. As usual, she's very talkative =.= but i had to admit that some of the things she said is very meaningful since its an "experience" thing and all. At that point i knew that this is the best option to hand this gift to her. I told the boss that i wanna try to bring my ex back to me again and i asked if she could hand this gift to her. She asked "why dun u hand it to her urself?"... its not like i didn't ask myself that before. I just thought that she might not wanna see me or maybe i just dun wanna see her. The "no feeling" face of hers... =.= it's just heart breaking u know. So i asked the boss to sms her that there's a promotion or something jst so that she'll visit her store and that's about it i guess. Me and my fren left the shopping complex as i was very tired already and i'm not really in the mood, dun wanna affect my sensitive fren =.= he's always effected by my mood =.=.

Home, i got a call from the boss, she said she hand the gift to my ex already, i asked her what did my ex say? she said she didn't say anything, she's just beside her =.=||| wtheck... why call me when she's still beside you =.=. At that point, i really wanted to hear her voice again. I always thought back of the time i get to hug and kiss her =.= dam. In the end, the boss told me if i had any last word to say to her. I asked her to tell my ex that i love her and that's it i guess.

I really wonder if she still have me in her heart, but maybe she's right at one point, maybe i should just let her go. Its just very regretting that i didn't get to treat her the way i really wanted to. *sigh* i guess i'll never have that chance, but i'll keep trying till i finally give up.

Baby, when will u come back? can't u see how much i've missed u? why are u leaving me like this? did i really break your heart again this time? I've told her alot of times, that if there's a problem, we can always talk it out properly. If i'm not paying much attention, she could've reminded me. Though i also know that i should be more observant and remember without her reminding me =.=.. oh well... leave it for next time if there ever is a next time i guess.

As always baby,
i love you <3