Verse 14 - Kinda hurts

Today is great, i'm at ease doing my work and i have proper planning now. All i had to do is follow it, though something came up that got my mood all down and all =.=

I got to chat with her again today. She find me... *aint good*. She started yapping about not wanting to be friends with me anymore if i asked her frens to help me get her back. Oh well...

I remembered talking to one of her fren, he said that she's been wearing the ring i gave her. I thought maybe there's some meaning behind it? i dunno... so i kinda asked him to find out. But, things turned out just as i expected. She made it clear to me just now saying that she only wore it cos it look nice. =.= i understand... it does look nice.

Kinda hurt abit, but its alrite, compare to what i've put her through, i guess its nothing. Dunno if its the morning mood or wat, but i'm kinda calm when dealing with her, heh... i guess i really know her too well.

Overall today was alrite aside from that little pain. Was planning to go gym but, i forgot to bring my stuff =.=. Oh yea, i think i've started to move on in a way. Though i still love her alot, i guess wanting her back is not the 1st priority anymore. After all those things she said, like "i no more feel for you" and stuff, i'm really begining to think that its true, and whatever i do is kinda hopeless. But i'll still try i guess, until i finally give up. Shouldn't be hard if she keep hurting me unintentionally. I'm actually getting use to the pain now, just as she got used to the pain when she was with me? I know, i might say it today, and forget about it tomorrow =.=

Maybe her fren is rite, neglecting her must be more hurtful than scolding her. Ah well, just let her be i guess.

Baby, i dunno if we'll ever be together again. If i'll be able to show u just how much this relationship has changed. But whatever the end result might be, i wont have any regrets anymore, cos at least i know we've once loved each other wholeheartedly...

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