New verse 1 - I'm missing you badly

Once upon a time, i used to have a great gf. She had a hard temper, a perfect smile, attractive eyes and an attitude that i wont get bored of.

Everytime she goes mad at something totally unreasonable, i would get pissed too. I guess both our tempers are bad. Being together is the last thing we should do. That's wat we all thought. But what about the good times?

When she cry, when she felt betrayed, i was there and it hurts me just as deeply. The hugs we gave each other that time is enuff to ease the pain eventho its only for awhile, giving it room to prepare for the fights ahead. The kisses that we gave was enuff to tell each other we'll be together for the rest of our life. Enough to let each other knows "I truely love you"

One day, she hurts me very bad and ask me to leave, so i left. When she wants me back, i told her i couldn't anymore, but i could've made the effort to. Just becos i thought she wont ever leave me... Just becos of that stupid thoughts, i hurt her deeply when all i really want was for her to be strong. I was too self-confident, too dumb.

I got caught up with work, with the thoughts of giving us a better future. But i never thought about what if i loose her.

Yes, i once had a great gf. She had a hard temper, a perfect smile, attractive eyes and an attitude that i wont get bored of. And she left me becos i couldn't understand her...

Its not that i dun understand her... but rather i failed to treat her the way i should. All becos i expected too much from her. All becos of my stupid self-centered ego.

Yes, we've hurt each other deeply before. That's why it'll be different this time around. But i guess there wont be a "this time around" anytime soon.

I'll always be here for her if she needed me again. As a fren / as a lover no one knows.

I'm missing her so badly right now, she told me she misses me from time to time, thinking twice about coming back. So why didn't she? she said its becos she don't want to be hurt again, don't want these never ending heartbreak, and seeing our never changing self, she got tired.

They say love is like picking a stone. She picked me and i picked her, this is fate. Then we started carving each other to become the shape that we want. Time and efforts are needed here, so we wont start carving unless we're sure this is the stone that we would want for the rest of our life.

She was the one i wanted for the rest of my life. There are alot of things that i regret doing. Specially leaving her at home alone while i was out. People make mistakes, and i've learnt from it so why wont she return? If no one was there to interrupt will she return then?

Yes, i once have a, in my eyes, a perfect gf. She had a hard temper, a perfect smile, attractive eyes and an attitude that i wont get bored of. And now she's gone...

-end-

I hope one day, our path will cross again.
Then i'll review this blog everyday, to remind myself just how important you are to me. Just how badly i needed u in my life so that i wont mistreat u ever again.

Everlasting - 152 <3 Baby Laopo.