Never ending Verse

I thought i could get her back if i wanted to. I hesitate a lot of times, and sometimes i just stopped trying. But i never realized the result would be the same even if i tried.

Damn, can't believe i love her so much. For what? Wat good will it bring me?

A lot of times, i mistreated her. Never really been a good bf at all. The things i said, even tho i knew it was against her thoughts, i said it anyways. What was my aim anyways? why was i so dumb?

Remembered i said to never regret, to treat her good even tho she got a new guy. But i jst couldn't do it. Does that mean i'm useless? To forget her, i broke contact with her. I believe its the only way i could get my mind off her, but instead its the direct opposite. I'm sure i'll feel better soon... but when? Can't stop thinking about her. Can't stop thinking that i could've done so much better.

Why does she have to count the numbers of chances she gave me? If she loves me, why can't she forgive and forget? Why can't she just trust that i'll make everything alrite again?

She said she was tired so many times, i know, i know, i really know. But i want her to know that she wont feel this way this time around. I want her to know so badly that i tried going against her thoughts, her will...

How dumb can i get? =.=|| i only think properly when i wasn't in contact with her. Everytime we chat, talk and stuff, i tend to be very panic and rushing things... I dun know how she can just forget about me.

She told me she took a month to totally forget about me. FORCING herself to forget me... when she could've just gave me another chance to make her feel loved again.

Maybe this is for the better. That's what most people said. It might be true too. Maybe i'm just afraid. Afraid that i can't find someone like her again. Loyal, honest and true. Thoughts of getting cheated, not being able to find someone whom would give me chances again and again, stick with me everywhere i go.

I should've treasured her more... sigh****

Everytime she was mad, i know i should've hug her tight, kiss her and say nice words.
Everytime she was being unreasonable, i know i should've just smile and say i'm sorry.
Everytime she wanted something, i know i should've made the effort of getting it for her.
Everytime she is sad, i know i should've been by her side more.
Everytime she's out with me and my frens, i shouldn't had said anything that would put her mood down.

I guess its all too late now...
Maybe one day we'll be together again?
Most likely not when i found a new one i guess...
Either way, i know we both shouldn't regret the decisions made today.

We were so meant to be. She knows it, i knows it. Still, it ended up this way...
If only i did wat i should've done...

Come back baby, come back again... at least for awhile... to see the difference.
Guess she's just too afraid to be hurt again.

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