New verse 8 - Moving on

Yeap, just like the topic today says. I'm taking another step forward. Before i start with today's story, i would like to say, i really miss baby alot, i really love baby alot and whatever happens, i'll always be there for u. If not as ur lover, then as ur fren =)

Went partying yesterday nite, and it was one hell of a nite! Meet this girl whom i think is quite attractive. I usually dun approach girls whom are attractive as i tend to have nothing to say =.= But that nite was different because, well... i lost the love of my life to another guy =.= so yea, i was thinking 'what the heck" and just go towards this girl and started introducing myself.

Like i said, that nite was different, not becos of me being daring and everything, but becos of that girl. She is dam open and before i even started introducing myself, she said "hello, nice party rite? wat's ur name?" and i was like "..... ye..yea... I'm wingz, what bout u?"

At that point i thought of "her" again, and i got kinda moody. I was hoping that my thoughts of her wont spoil the mood of the party with that girl. So, i shook the thoughts off and continued with my talks with her. Found out she's older than me and is married already. But i didn't mind, (hey, viewers out there, i aint hitting on this chick yet ok.)* cos i wasn't gonna hit on her. Its just that she's pretty, and she's open and down to earth. U guys know the feeling rite? yeap! =)

Here are part of our conversation:

girl: so where's ur girl?

me: i dun have one. just broke up 2 months + ago.

girl: aw.. that's sad, dun worry, u'll get a new one. ^^

me: yea, i know, it aint easy tho.

girl: well, its never easy finding the right person.

me: well, i found her, but i lost her =.=

girl: then find another one... hahaha. u found it once, so u can find it again.

me: yea well, i still love her so.

girl: so u want her back? hahaha...

me: er... yea.. sorta...

girl: well, why dun u try finding someone and wait for her at the same time? This way, its either she'll be back with you or u'll be with a new girl whom u fell in love with.

me: i am...

girl: dun seem like it. there's a girl over there, go!

-end-

That was "part" of our conversation in mandarin.

Later on that day, still in the party, i thought of what the girl said.

Really, have i really been waiting for her and going after another girl? or am i just waiting for her? What if she doesn't come back? am i gonna be a monk? =.=|||

In a conversation with my dad, i said before "let fate decide" and my dad went "fate, fate ur head, u dun go look where got fate?"

Seriusly tho, its true =.=. So have i really been looking and waiting at the same time? or just waiting?

Found out i was only waiting =.=||| so from that nite on, i aint gonna just wait around anymore. I thought to myself, i aint bad, i aint that poor, its not like i'm fugly or something, i'm willing to change for the better, i somewat know how to treat a girl i love and i got plans for myself before. So why am i just waiting around?

So that nite was one hell of a party, cos i actually went hitting on girls =.= and got myself 2 numbers. Now, i aint gonna rush things so, i'll start with a little "hi" and do some research. kekekeke.

This morning, i was gonna sms those girls but then i didn't. I hesitated cos i thought "what if things got serius?" am i really ready to move on with the new girl? do i even have the cash to treat them to drinks and foods and stuff when i got either one of them? =.=||| ah well.. i guess i'll just develop some relation with them 1st. At least by doing this, even if we can't be together, we'll still remain as frens ^^

So yea, this morning have been good, cos the pain i had in my chest every morning is gone. I'm actually waiting while moving on now. And i got options again. Wat's a guy without options rite? =.=|||

I've decided to stop blogging here from today on as well, its inappropriate as i created this blog solely for "her". If u find me blogging here again, its gonna be becos i'm back with her =) but i'll review this blog over and over again from time to time just so to remind myself that i still love her so much. And If viewers wanna see what i'm up to, then visit my new blog at bbwingzlife.blogspot.com. This blog aint up yet. It will soon ^^. Over there, i will touch up on "her" as well whenever i miss her or thought of something related to her.

Minor notice: there aint gonna be pictures in that blog too so yea... hahaha

152 <3 always and forever